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delving into the deep

delving into the deep

i just finished up the short story patrick rothfuss wrote for a collection by george rr martin, which means i am once again rothfuss-less. i just read 2000+ pages and now i’m wallowing in book grief. 
this is part of the reason i’m avoiding reading harry potter again – there is so much a person gets invested in in a series like that, and when it’s over, it’s such a loss. i’m friendless, storyless, worldless. 
this is not to say i won’t pick them up again. if that were the case, i’d never read again. to take the time out of your day to visit a world not your own, a life not your own, and recreate it with your own scenes is something pretty incredible. i really do feel sorry for those people who watched the HP movies before reading the books. or any books, really. to experience those stories with your own imagination is a pretty powerful thing. (it’s also a huge disappointment when it hits the big screen and the scenes play out nothing like you’d expected.)
rothfuss had his books optioned for a film/tv adaptation, and i’m scared outta my pants, one for the adaptation itself and two because how will this dent his time with book 3? (i know; i know. that’s the selfish side of me.)
but there are always more books. so i’ll keep on reading.

politics not as usual?

politics not as usual?

how do you get in a twitter argument about hillary vs. bernie when you’re technically on the same side…? (and only have 140 characters, to boot.) this happened to me today. here’s more than 140 characters!
here’s what unusual about bernie sanders and why i’ll be voting for him. 
he hasn’t taken any money from large corporations. all his money is funded by the little people (aka you and me). i’ve donated $25 to him, the first time i’ve ever in my life given money to a politician. i’ll probably give more. 
he’s pretty darn staunch on his issues. he doesn’t sway on them like other candidates. hillary only became supportive of gay rights in the last five years. not cool, hills. (as an aside, i just read that hillary supports the death penalty in federal cases. really? really??)
he’s honest. liz and i went to see him when he stopped in rochester, and i’ll never forget what he said about by the people for the people. we have to do some of the work ourselves. he alone as president doesn’t have much power. but we the people can make things happen. if he can fire up the country to take a more active role in the issues that come to politicians’ desks, then all the better. those issues are our own issues, after all. let’s own them.
will he beat a republican? if you vote for him, yes he will. people keep saying that bernie can’t win. bernie can’t win. well, not with that attitude! if you’re going to the polls to merely vote for the lesser of two evils, that’s a pretty sad state of affairs. then suddenly there’s a candidate who actually seems like he gives a crap about people’s lives and isn’t a corporate shill at the same time, and you actually really like his policies and what he’s talking about, but you’re NOT GOING TO VOTE FOR HIM?? what is wrong with you? 
his stance on guns has been questioned as not controlling enough. i feel the same as bernie on this issue, and that’s a blog for another day, but if he’s pretty lenient on gun control, more undecided moderate/conservatives might lean his way. plus, he’s said gun control is a state issue (think rural vs. urban and how guns are used differently), which is pretty attractive to states’ right activists. 
here’s the thing. this is a chance to take the current state of politics and turn it on its nasty little head. even if you’re staunchly republican, you can’t deny that this would be a 180 in politics. what does bernie need to do now? appeal to minorities. appeal to older voters. get people fired up about going to vote. i’m planning on going to a caucus for the first time in my life. add that i gave him money, and if this is what he’s doing for a 36-year-old average, liberal white girl? let’s get the fire going. bern it up!

sumbissions

sumbissions

i’ve been trying to get some writing in magazines! i got my pie essay put in the rochester women’s mag a year or so ago, and now i’m submitting a thing on running. here it is! 
“Well, she’ll never be a sprinter.” My father’s insight when I was three years old was spot on. I never did become a sprinter. I think I surprised him, though, when I decided to become a runner at age 32.
Oh, I had dabbled a little bit. The summer after my sophomore year of college, my younger sister and I took up running in the evenings. I don’t think we ever ran more than two miles at a time, and it was always an easy walk-run pace.
Then it slipped from my routine, and I didn’t think to take up any sort of sport for a long time. My lazy ways caught up to me, and exercise was something I just didn’t care about.
Something clicked in 2011, though. I can’t pinpoint a specific moment, but I was frustrated with how clothes didn’t fit well and how certain chairs were not comfortable. I started looking for something I could do to feel better wearing a button-down shirt. At the same time, my former-running-buddy sister had mentioned something about a program called Couch to 5k. In theory, you could get off the couch with no exercise experience and run a 5k (or three miles) in nine weeks. I figured I could try it out, and if anything, I could quit.
That was five years ago with many miles logged since. I’m not going to say the program was easy, because it wasn’t. It was difficult and hard and more than once I wanted to stop. My knees wigged out and my hip cramped up and my breathing took a long time to normalize. What they said would take nine weeks actually took me about twelve.
But the first time I ran three miles without stopping for a walk or break was beyond exhilarating. I’m not talking about the so-called runner’s high; this was a personal pride high. Running is a mind game you only play with yourself, and the only competition and person to let down is you.
After I reached my goal, it was another long few months until I actually enjoyed a run. Even after five years of doing this, I’ll admit that most of the time I’m on a treadmill or out running through the streets, I am not enjoying myself 100 percent.
The times I am enjoying myself, however, I realize why people do this. It isn’t the sore muscles or the labored breathing, the money spent on shoes and the blisters.
It’s the thought of lacing up shoes, opening your front door, and taking a break from the world for a half an hour. It’s listening to the queued podcast or inspiring music or just the sounds of the world around you.
It’s running along a residential street and wondering what people are doing inside their houses. It’s waving to the neighbors and getting a small wave and nod of acknowledgement from every other runner or walker on the road.
It’s the smell of springtime growth and fresh air after a long winter of making do on a treadmill (or worse – running in sub-zero temps! Not my cup of tea). It’s plugging away in summertime humidity and catching a whiff of just-cut grass. It’s kicking through piles of orangey-red maple leaves that have migrated to the edges of the road and inhaling the scent of autumn.
It’s the final half mile when you can see your destination in the distance and push yourself a little bit more to get home a little quicker. You power through because maybe this will be a good final running time or you’re tired and want to collapse on the grass or you know there’s a giant bowl of ice cream waiting for you. But really, the only real reason you power through it because, well, you can.

flint crisis

flint crisis

the flint, mich. water crisis is a lot less involved than the oregon standoff, and could really be boiled down to one word: infrastructure.
but first, a brief explanation of what exactly’s happening. 
the current infrastructure in flint was built in 1952 using lead pipes, as was common in those days. lead is cheap and easy to work with, so all the water mains and the service lines to homes were made from lead, which can leach into the water. the ok thing with this is that over time, the water itself creates a protective oxide and phosphate coating. in 1967, the city stopped treating its own water and used water that was piped in from detroit. this went on until 2014, after a weird water-source war led the city to get its water from the flint river and treat it. 
bad news here. turns out the water in the flint river has a lower pH and higher salinity, which caused that protective coating in the pipes to corrode away and expose the lead, letting it leach into the water once again. 
people started complaining about bad water in early 2015, and the city pretty much ignored them. a doctor in flint found high levels of blood lead in the children in flint. meanwhile, the michigan dept. of environmental quality kept saying the water was safe. flint officials filed papers showing that they tested the water in the plant and in homes it was fine. surprise surprise: they never actually tested tap water from homes that had lead service lines.  the city doesn’t even know where these homes are!
on a local level, on dec. 15 the mayor issues a citywide state of emergency to get additional state and federal funding for the repercussions of the high lead levels. work crews started to deliver bottled water, filters and cartridges, especially to homes built in the early 1900s. they also encouraged homeowners to pick up a water testing kit. 
on a state level, the governor declared a state of emergency on jan. 5, and on jan. 9, FEMA sent two officers to monitor the situation. on jan. 15, they adviced pres. obama to grant a federal disaster, and he did, which gives flint up to $5 million. 
the estimates of fixing the infrastructure in flint is millions of dollars, up to $1.5 billion, and could take up to 15 years to replace. now there are other cities coming forward with the same problems and the same aging infrastructure. 
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this brings up one question: why aren’t we investing in our own cities, towns, people? a lot of america’s infrastructure is aging, crumbling, getting to the point of unusable. this isn’t just lead water pipes. this is roads, electricity, bridges (think I-35 bridge), etc. our country keeps getting bigger and bigger, and our infrastructure is getting more and more pressure on it. at some point, it’s going to break and not be useful any more. 
weirdly enough, this is the kind of socialist welfare that almost every person can get behind. unfortunately, we don’t want to spend a lot of money on it, so we’d rather send our money to build aircraft carriers and fund wars overseas than to focus on what’s happening right here on our own soil. war on terror? how about a war on potholes and unsafe bridges? a war on aging lead watermains? a war on sick children because we can’t get enough money to update something after it’s a known cause of medical problems? how about preventing instead of treating? an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure – true story. 
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this screenshot is really the saddest part of this whole narrative. we need to set up gofundme sites for people to donate money to flint residents rather than the city or state taking care of its people – so much for by the people for the people.
instead of people’s taxes going to real problems they see in their everyday lives, the money’s being used for wars in places they’ve never been, big business subsidies they never see, big agriculture subsidies to get them bad food, bailing out banks that mishandled their money to begin with, and overseas friends who don’t return the favor.
trickle down? well, flint’s water did. and look what happened there. 

the light

the light

when i leave work these days, the sun is still far enough above the horizon to make my heart say, “yay!” i love the extra light we start getting at the end of december. already it seems like there is so much extra light that i should be out planting or doing something in the evenings instead of hermitting myself in my house.
today was warm – i think the high was around 45º. that’s enough to make me go stir crazy and to remind myself “oh! that’s right! eventually this ends!” so this afternoon i went for a run outside. i did wear a little too much headgear and i was sweating by the end, but overall i wore the right amount of clothing for the run (sometimes i end up not wearing enough and my skin is cold to the touch and bright red when i strip off my sweaty clothing).  
it wasn’t a bad run, but it wasn’t a great run. i was running entirely too fast for the first run outside in two or three months. i heard runkeeper give my pace after five minutes and was completely surprised that i was keeping it around a 12 minute mile (i was expecting a 13-minute mile). (as an aside, it’s awesome to have runkeeper back in my regular phone without having to switch sims and hope that the app doesn’t crash before i get done.) after i got up to an average pace of 12:05 after two miles, i tried to slow down a bit. it sort of worked, but not really.
i took a look at the long-term forecast, and it looks like the temp is heading downward again, but it’s nice to have a moment of respite to remind oneself of how it was and how it will be. 
here’s to more light in the days!

you never know what you'll find!

you never know what you'll find!

the top shelf in my pantry cupboard has been wiggly since the day i moved in. instead of dealing with it then, i decided to just fill it up and deal with it. tonight i finally decided to figure out what was going on.
turns out the builder drilled support holes along the door since the shelves were so long (the shelves go back past the door to the right to the wall). the shelf was too flush with the wall for it to sit on the support properly. i banged around and shoved things around and got the stupid shelf to sit properly. thanks, builders! you’d think they’d get that in there right.
at the same time, it was an opportune moment to clean out the crap in my pantry. tossed a lot of old food and open food. then i found a couple hershey bars i’d forgotten i’d hidden for smores! haha. also, have a gigantic reeses pb cup i got for christmas. mmmm. 
now my pantry’s cleaned for the most part, my fridge is cleared out of crap, and i have some candy. can’t beat that!

finding home

finding home

i’ve always said that home is where nate and the kitties are. that’s not a lie. 
but when i drive northward to central minnesota, i can feel my heartstrings relax and reach out to the countryside. i find the familiar rolling hills, the clustered farms, the trees that abut fields that abut more trees and more trees, and the occasional lake or pond. these aren’t the valley bluffs or the pond masquerading as a lake or the five trees lining the edge of farmland before stretching into another expanse of crop. 
when i am northerly, and i have been more than once recently, i exhale a sense of relief: i am home. 
last time i was there, my friend melissa drove from fargo to meet me for lunch. we talked about how the st cloud area, for both of us, always feels like we’re coming home. she’d only lived in st cloud for two years. maybe it’s because this was the first place that we both lived after moving away from our parents’ homes. or we want to relive the halcyon days of college (although not really the case for her). 
the people look familiar (very german). the orderliness and cleanliness is satisfying. even the shoppers get me. (seriously – i went to target in st cloud last time i was up, and it was uncanny how differently people shop up there than down here. they all shop like i do.)
and then i come home to nate and the kitties. they are home. but i watch the countryside as i drive to work or to run into town, and while it’s known to me, it’s not familiar. rochester is nice looking but it’s not orderly nor is it clean. the people (caucasian) look more angular and different (not too german). 
i like my house. i like my job. i really like the people i work with. but. but but but.

following through

following through

next monday, it will have been three months since charlie’s accident. three months! it feels like it’s been three decades. 
anyway, i he got a notice in the mail today that his reparations claim was approved. what that means is that after his medical bills all go through car and medical insurance, the state will pay up to $50,000 in bills and go after the lady who hit him. 
this got me to thinking about her court date. jane and i both agreed with each other that we’d like to go to her trial. when i talked to the person at the county, she told me that it would most likely be a jury trial sometime in the early summer. her omnibus hearing will most likely be sometime in february (i think that’s where they figure out what to do). 
i checked the dakota county court website, and they only have calendar items one day in advance. really? wow. so here’s hoping that something comes in the mail.