EX-mas
i have not been in a very chirstmassy mood lately. i think it may be attributed to the cruddy time i’m having finding a job. i have been in a constant state of anxiety for about two weeks now, and it’s not fun! there is this knot in my stomach that refuses to go away. i wish i could be excited for graduation, but this rejection is just eating at my excitement i had at the beginning of the semester.
anyway, i think it also has to do with the lack of snow. and the smallness of my living arrangements that allows for no xmas tree. and all my decorations are in storage. so i have some tinsel on my entertainment center along wtih two snowglobes, which i took OUT of storage so they didn’t freeze and explode. is it just me or has it been rather snow-less lately during winter? it’s so annoying that i have to put up with cold, and there’s not even any snow for xmas. what a bum deal.
i have some ornaments that had been hiding in new london for the last five years or so that i got from erin. they are vintage, real vintage, ornaments and they’re kind cool. so i might string them up on a piece of ribbon and hang them on the weird wroughtiron fence thing i have in my living room (don’t ask).
i really wish i could put up a tree. liz has a tree! i have never had my own tree and it kind of depresses me. i heart the xmas tree! next year i HAVE to have a tree, or else i will be sad.
so, maybe next week i will be more xmas-y. once i have my target job nailed down and i’m done with my current job. i’ll watch rudolph and charlie brown and drink hot chocolate while eating the millions of cookies on my kitchen table.