i had my 6-month review on tuesday and now i’ve had 2 days to mull it over. hrrrrmmmm.
basically he said i need to take more initiative, speak up more, take the lead more. at one point i took his comments to tell me to stop smiling as much. good grief.
i hate leading crap when there is an obvious leader in the room. HATE it. but i can do it if worse comes to worse. and as i ruminated over his comments, i began to think that i was just annoyed with the fact that he wanted me to be less quiet and reserved. his words.
then i realized that i’m not annoyed at that. i’m annoyed because he has a problem with something is FUNDAMENTAL to who i am. quiet and reserved is a part of me – has been for 33 years, and since my life’s at least 1/3 over, i can say without much reservation that this won’t change, no matter how much he wants it to.
did he hire the wrong person? i don’t know. maybe. do i bring this up to him? if there’s one thing i’ve learned while working here the 7 months i have it’s that people do not expect you to stick around and loyalty is generally not that high. people bounce from position to position within the school quite a bit. maybe because ultimately you’re working for the state? i don’t know. either way, i think it would be within bounds to talk to him about this.